The wheels are turning

These next few weeks leading up to the move are going to be the hardest I've ever known. Everyone is beginning to input their opinion about what I should be doing and how I should be doing it. It's such an internal struggle to be respectful yet independent. Do I take some of their advice and mix it with mine? Do I stick with my gut feelings and forge forward with my own plan?

This whole adventure is happening because I don't feel like Napa has much for me right now. BF and I need to figure out what we want out of life TRULY and our own struggles are making it very hard to co-exist peacefully. And I love that man with all my heart. Moving to Pennsylvania will open up doors that don't even exist if I stay in California. How awesome to be a part of the NCAA and around so many amazing historical monuments. Maybe a New Year's in Times Square is fitting, or a weekend girls trip to the Pocono Mountains. Whatever happens will be a learning experience and I need some clarity about what lies ahead for me.

On a good note, all my classes are scheduled: it will be a full load, but I'm prepared for hard work so I can graduate a Nittany Lion. Wish me luck!

XO

Where it all begins...

I've finally been accepted. Three Penn State applications later (I never finished the first two), I'm finally in. I'm not sure how to describe the emotions I'm feeling right now. It's surreal that I'm going to be attending the school I used to tell my third grade classmates I would go to, no doubt (I never imagined I'd finish high school with a 1.5 GPA). I'm thrilled beyond words to be able to spend more time with my PA cousins now that we're adults (the gap between 28 and 32 is much different than 15 and 20). I can't believe this California girl is going to be living in the freezing cold and snow for an entire season!

I want to prove to everyone, especially myself, that I can accomplish something and make it in this crazy, wonderful, beautiful world doing something I love to do. I can't imagine anything more fun than supporting a sports team and getting paid to write about it.

My head is spinning about so many things but I know I can do this. Push forward. Think positive. And stop worrying about what other people think! Life happens and there's no stopping it.